I would love to be telling you all that I’ve lost a ton of weight this week, unfortunately life has gotten in the way and I was not able to exercise much this week. I am being evicted from my home. I have been trying to figure out a way to stay, but because of things out of my control it does not look good. I was actually evicted back in December. I have never been though this process before and had no idea what I needed to do. I was told by a member in the office that I didn’t have to move, because there was no manager to inforce it. I was hoping that would give me time to pay up.
Unfortunately I am going on 3 months of being unemployed. I did not get unemployment until January another issue with being able to pay my rent and get help. In December I had no income, so per the state, my housing was unaffordable. They would not help me. Now, because there is nothing from the court stating I owe what I really owe, only what I owed in December, the state can not help me. My caseworker is really trying, but I have a feeling there’s nothing we can do.
There is a small amount of good news. At least the first day I was really stressed I did work out, but the rest of the week I have been running around trying hard to figure out a way to keep my home. I do have a sofa to sleep on is another bit of good news. Unfortunately, it is in a very small town, where there are no jobs. I was raised there and I don’t see a future in this town. I keep reminding myself that I have this blog, it is earning me some money, I can keep building, keep trying and hopefully one day make enough to support myself on my own.
I’ll admit I have been eating like crap, I have been stressed and it’s effecting my weight loss. I have anxiety and though I know as a diabetic I have to eat, my body doesn’t want to. So I have turned to quick meals to get me by. Not healthy, but it’s a battle that right now I can’t win. I’ll be honest I had 3 panic attacks before 9am yesterday. I started drinking at 10am. I didn’t go too crazy, but I probably had 10 drinks before I went to bed at 10pm. I needed to be just numb enough for the panic to stop. I needed a day where I didn’t feel. It’s not something I do often, but sometimes something has to be done. I’m also out of my medication and no longer have insurance, so it’s really bad.
I know this is not the story you want to hear on these post. I don’t even know if anyone reads these post as I never get comments, but I write anyway. Next week I will not have a weigh in post because I will be moving. I’m not even sure I’ll be able to exercise well at my new location. Not like I wanted to anyway, so I’m not sure if these post will continue.
I will now give you what you came for, if you have made it this far, thank you for reading, I needed to share what was going on.
So here is my weight gain for the week. I am once again back to where I started. It’s depressing and right now I have other things to worry about.
The only good news for at least the next 2 days is that we are getting a ton of snow, so I will be getting my workout in that way. In fact I’m going for shovel pass number one as soon as I hit publish. I’ll take what I can get right now.